the other end and i.

sometimes it seems like i try too hard

maybe its just me..
yet this feeling - it's always new to me
I've noticed that I'm always taking it by surprise and that maybe its what causes me to act so different and look at things differently. like am i supposed to feel this way? because with some people, they stop having this kind of feeling. they stop feeling this way like after a few months, or a year or two and so on. and then eventually what they have dies, or slowly fades and disappears. why is it like that with them? how come things turn out that way? why isn't it like that with me? it seems that way on the other end.. like what happened to the actions that were done that made a difference? they were done in the beginning and carried out in the middle and today, its no more.. could it be that the feeling on the other end is growing old and will soon fade and disappear like all the others? where would that leave me? i still feel that new crisp feeling. my face still lights up with that same glow. and my heart still races before the moment i've been waiting for. should i continue doing the actions that made a difference.. or should i stop the way the other end did? yet since this feeling is always new to me, it feels like these actions never grow old. what if they still make a difference on the other end? yet what would i get in return.. like sometimes i just want to stop giving a shit or well care less so i wouldn't feel like i'm being so annoying. or come off as crazy. but this feeling stops me from doing so. i can't get rid of it and even if i'm apart from what/who causes this feeling, i still feel it. and continue to yearn for something more. :]

i've learned that people will forget what you said, they will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.