friday/success/highlight

friday

the bio anatomy class i was going for was packed.

so i didn't get in. i walked around campus trying to find a class i could just get into.

human development failed. but earth science was a success.

so i now have 3 for sure classes. just one more class to get and i'll be a full time student.

i got my psych book and speech 101 book. yessss. i can finally do homework! WOO.

so after all that, tony picked me up, we ate at mcdonalds. went to disneyland after

and i was having a good time until the silence between us. and gah i don't know, sometimes when there are those silences

i don't know what to think, i don't know how i should react. so i react the way most people would.

i was worried. i was scared. i was seeking answers.

i was at disneyland. more than ever, i wanted to be happy

i didn't want to cry but i did. tears are hard to stop when you can't help but feel disappointed, hurt, and alone.

and once you've realized there is no shoulder to cry on.. thats when..

when people were holding hands, being lovey dovey,

i wondered.. why isn't that me right now?

i hated the awkward silences during the last two rides we went on.

The silent walk down main street, and downtown disney.

the silence between us inside the store for the #of minutes we were in there for

then the silence breaks. it was the highlight of my day/night

that lead to odd sign language, and racing down the parking structure......

he held my hand.

the end.

"i'm looking into a shattered world with tiny bits of broken glass. mirrors cracked and distorted reflections. how do you walk with that smile? how do you talk with such enthusiasm? how do you sit still? how do you do it? how can you act the way you do when everything in your eyes is perfect? how do you look at yourself? how do you sleep when there's nothing but broken glass?"