traumatized/church

last night was CRAZY.

i'm still traumatized as of now.

the whole thing still plays over and over in my head.

and his voice and the words "please help me" still ring in my ear.

so today i got to drive to church. went to 11 o clock mass. saw so many old faces

ugh i wish that principal came freaking 5 years ago when i was still attending school there!

ahaha, but it was cool walking around checking everything out.

after that, chilled in the gl room. took a nice nap. waited a bit for tony to finish playing game so we could go get something to munch munch on.

we went to costco. woo hot dogs!

then went back to the gl room.

gl meeting. played mafia. i freaking love that game.

then the activity. i'm not sure if that was the tree activity that i was really curious about. hmmm...

but this activity was interesting. but i hated it because i found myself only wanting to cry at the end.

went to red robins after mass to eat dinner.

last day of summer. wasn't really what i'd expect. again i had high expectations. blehhh why!

it isss 11:00pm.

now i'm online waiting for tony to come online

he says he'll be on soon. i can't wait to show him something on youtube

he's going to go freaking crazy! and i want him to send me some songs

that i forgot to get from him before. i finally remembered about it.

ugh i hope i don't forget.

i start school tomorrow! woo. weird.

hmm ahah its 12. i don't think he'll be online soon like he said he would an hour ago. ahaha

i guess it'll have to waaait til tomorrow and i hope i remember.

siigh.

i hate how emotional i get during t.o.m days. freaking stupid.

but eh.. man this whole waiting thing. i've been doing a lot of it.

God, youve given me so much patience.

am i crying because i'm feeling unworthy of what you give me, or am i crying because of other reasons.

Reminders to show/remind:

Wall-e

music

serious business