hard.

its hard to feel happy inside
when this isn't what i really want
i don't know what God wants,
but i know for sure that this is far from what i want, from what i ever want
but like what was said, all i can do is pray and let God
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i went to the viewing.
it was hard to look at her
it felt so weird..

and then going to gl was weird
singing firefly tore me apart
mass was a different feeling.
this isn't going to be easy at all.