argh

why does it feel like i'm headed in the wrong direction?

edit.
well i must say.. it sure is hard to stay in one place.
good thing i'm getting a little bit of everything.. right?
hmm.. i wish you could just go straight into the major things so i wouldn't have to wait if it's right for me or not..
what do i find joy in?
... i hope i find the answer to this by year 2011/2012..