sigh

i had a great day
but it ended lame.
sometimes i wish bullets came out of my fingers. hah no not really.
or sometimes i wish i wasn't so thoughtful of others
or didn't care too much
i just want whats best.
i hate when a text message can fail and be read the wrong way. if we were on the phone or face to face the outcome would have been totally different, the message would have gotten across, the tone of voice would have set the mood, and so on. but texts don't do that for you.
it sucks when the intentions are good
but the one on the other side doesn't take them in a very good way.
i even laughed about it after to show that i was just joking and didn't mean it in a dumb way.

yep, texts don't really work well with those kinds of things.
they should have voice texts. so you could hear how its said.
but then again thats what the phone is for. or i guess i should put in parentheses how i'm saying something. like "Hey, what are you up to?" (sounds REALLY happy/interested in knowing) or "Your so mean!" (sounds sad) or (sounds sad / hint of faking) or (sounds mad) hahaha, or instead of doing parentheses i could add faces after each comment. but sometimes the face images on the cell don't really do a good job. they don't have every emotion/feeling. ahah

i go through this a lot with some friends, my boyfriend, even my mom. sometimes she thinks i'm yellling at her thru my text message. and sometimes i picture her mad when she sends me texts. with tony sometimes I text something that might sound demanding or like something that might sound like I don't want to do something for him, but if I were to read my texts out loud, there would be no hint of anger in my voice or no hint of annoyance. Like earlier, there wouldn't have been any hint of anger or annoyance. If we were on the phone or in person, I would have said that trying to sound convincing/funny.

yup i'm totally adding how i'm saying something after each text. if i remember.