i have hope

i apologize for my harsh blog below
i guess i'm just still upset at how we've been through so much and had conversation about being there for each other, that it isn't anything like that..
because you'd think that after 6 years, that bond would strengthen... not deteriorate.
everyone tries to reach out to you in some way but you turn them away
and it shouldn't be that way because you know all too well that we could be here for you if you take that hand.



my old choir teacher emailed me about disney musicals and auditions for 3 musicals on saturday! from 10-5 and even offered to pick up an audition time for me if I couldn't get out of school early and carpool with him and a few other choir alumni. weird? YES. i think so. i don't know if its like a sign or whatnot.. but I just wanna go with the flow and see where things go from there. Surprisingly, I don't want to think of it as a calling.. I probably can't get out of school early, but I'm willing to go the distance for this, and if I do a terrible job or don't get accepted, I'll have more experience points. the real way to learn the ropes is by gaining the experience points. I learned a lot from my last audition for Aladdin. If I've had this dream since I was 4.. I shouldn't give up on it even if it sounds impossible. A wonderful lady at tony's moms work made me realize this. She couldn't believe I was still going into nursing and thought I'm in a totally wrong field and was upset I wasnt going all the way with my talents. Naomi Judd first went to nursing school and then became a well known singer. So there is still hope. =]