im awake and have to face reality

i feel like screaming

as i looked back last night on all the things we've done
i couldn't help but feel sad..
i feel heart broken and angry
angry that this could have worked
angry that it was over something lame..
heart broken that it wasn't what i wanted
sad that it'll take me forever..

it just feels weird that its like
we both want each other
but can't have each other?

but maybe its more different than that...