when we fight
i don't try to forget you and close your instant message box
or put my phone on silent.
i do the opposite,
even though I shouldn't be
when its not my fault to begin with
and when I never meant to start anything
I stay up til past 4
waiting for the sound
waiting for my cell phone screen
to know if everythings okay..
to be able to go to sleep happy
i wait for the phone call
or a text message, or IM

and when i know deep down there'll be nothing coming my way
i still find myself waiting
most times i'm sad
that nothing comes
or frustrated because i can tell whats real
and when you throw me b.s
i get hurt that you still gotta lie
to cover up
and as i watch this life pass me by...
on days or nights like this
i can't help but wonder how many more days or nights like this are out there
and in store for me.